Am I Awake

from Am I Awake by Olivia Buckton-Smith

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This is a love letter to myself. I used to think that trauma and the things that have happened to me were my fault, just like the start of the song. But the second verse is what I have learned since then; I am who I am in spite of what has happened to me. Am I Awake has allowed me to take back my power and see my own strength again.

Influences for Am I Awake include Gang of Youths, Joni Mitchell, Mazzy Star, Lady Gaga, Billie Holiday, David Keenan and Radie Peat

lyrics

You give me signs of sickness
I feel like I have vertigo
My head starts spinning
I start to fall before I leave
Still whispering "no"

Can you hear me roaring like I do?
In my head
Or is it only the prize that you see
Lying on your bed?

Am I awake
Does it matter?
Will you still do the things that you do in my dreams?
Am I awake
Does it matter?
You still get what you want from my screams

I am my own muse
You hear my Siren Song
On a throne before you
The light is mine to control
You've taken your toll

Cruel curiosity and promises
Of diamond rings
But it's still only the bare paled hand
Waiting to be led

Am I awake
Does it matter?
Will you still do the things that you do in my dreams?
Am I awake
Does it matter?
You still get what you want from my screams

I'm not yours to do with as you choose
You don't win because I lose

Am I awake
Does it matter?

credits

from Am I Awake, released December 22, 2020
Session Artists: Steve Gijsbers & Dave Prideaux
Engineers: Steve Gijsbers & Dave Prideaux
Producer: Olivia Buckton-Smith
Photo: Elliot Ramsay

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Olivia Buckton-Smith Melbourne, Australia

Olivia is a Melbourne based singer with a background in Blues, Pop & Jazz. Her new youthful sound has been influenced by artists such as Phoebe Bridges, Panic! At the Disco, Gang Of Youths and others.
She pours herself into her music and takes us on an emotional journey, that packs a punch, with a groove that you can dance to.

Olivia's debut EP 'Am I Awake' is now available here on Band camp. ... more

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